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Salam! It was just last Thursday that I blogged 'complaining' abt my day. And now a whole new week has passed and I've got Nuha Alia in the family. Today Umar is down with cough and cold. And me all alone at home with 2 kids! A whole load of difference! Well I'm going to attempt to citer kan u all ape yang berlaku hehehe... without pics tho. I haven't had the time or complete health yet. But Insha Allah it will come. Well citer dia cam nie.. 11:30am My mom's place. Tgh sedap2x makan lunch .. yelah masak bamia lah katakan.. wahh best sungguh! sampai bungkus bawak balik untuk rumah. Delicious! Lahh hai selama nie akubuat bamia nie salah. rupa pakai bawang goreng belambak .. we'll talk abt bamia alittle later.. another update perhaps. But that was what I learnt! Tgh bgn dari meja makan tak pasal2x sakit pinggang mcm lain gitu. I told my mother.. dia buat dak jek.. hehehe tak pe i know dia Panic Queen. Akupun ikut sama buat bodoh. Hmm gotta wait for hubby to fetch me home and that's at 1pm. 1pm Hubby came to fetch us. Tgh turun tangga .. terasa pinggang loose. aduh.. contraction ke? hmm tak pe. Kitaorang jalan pelan2x tunggu teksi balik rumah. Sampai rumah hubby gi kerja. Umar tidor. And I attempted to sleep. 5:30pm Called hubby bilangkan sakit pinggang.. rasa cam lain sikit. Nie setelah I did mylast entry.

From then on, it got worst and worst. The rasa nak terberak was confusing! I called my sister after that, and she said i'm in labour. I said no lah. Nanti Monday nak gi check up ape? Abistu lupa nak monitor the contractions. But I know for sure I barely had any sleep that nite.

23 Mar 07 8am

Pagi2x hubby tak kerja. Umar dah pergi sekolah. I called my sister again. She said gi hospital. I said no i nak gi gynae je. I wait for hubby to come back from sending umar to school okay? I told her. My sis said she take off and will come straight to my house. Lepas tu my mother pulak talipon. Dah sakit perut? I cakap dah... tapi nak gi gynae je check up. Rupanya my sis and my mom in cahoot nak datang rumah I to whisk me off to the hospital.

9:30am

Hubby called gynae. Tak tau ape dia meracau dgn clinic tu.. tak pasal2x bila my mom and sis datang he said let's go to the hospital. I pun bersiap sedialah.

Called taxi hubby said taxi on the way. Turun nampak pakcik blasting mengaji.. (if im not mistaken). Mula2x pakcik drive relakz je.. as if we were sightseeing.. I think tak pasal2x he realised that I'm in labour wah pakcik drive macam lipas kodong.. muka terus pucat lesu! ehhehe kesian.

Abistu, bila dah sampai kat hospital, my 3 saviours left me in the taxi! They jumped out and just left! Aku struggle sorang2x nak keluar taxi.. abis tu pakcik nak handover change gave to me.. pakcik dah lah pucat! And me nak maintain.. i said no need wheelchair.. then hubby say need i said no need then hubby say noneed then i think my mom or sis said need .. we conceded. Anyway, memang giler aku nie kalau nak jalan and wait for lift to 2nd level to doc's office kan?

I was wheeled in to doc's office and nurse kata "buat ape kat sini? U dah overdue .. gi labourward lah.."" aduhhh malu nyee. I said okay..So I was wheeled to labour ward.

So drama bermula dari situlah. Aku dengar orang terpekik terlolong dah give birth. Me still waiting....

Nurse masuk kejap2x tanya nak pain killers tak? i said noneed i can handle. Gynae datang dah check semua I asked boleh makan tak? ( aku mana je.. sakit ke ape ke, tak kisah, penting makan) gynae said okay i give u porridge. Wah porridge datang 1 whole bowl aku finish the garnishing and the sauce semua licin. ahhaha tak macam orang in labour.

I was sms-ing my sister.. dia macam heran, mana got time to sms. I said in between contractions can sms. hahahhaha. Jadi dari waktu aku masuk selain menahan pain, taking pics, and reading newspaper, i also watched a whole movie on HBO! And sempat get irritated with hubby.

4:30pm

I asked for painkiller jab on the thigh. Apparently it didn't work at ALL!. wah contraction every 3mins aiyoyoyoy sakit giler...

5pm

Decision came for ceaserian at 6:30pm

5:45pm

I was wheeled out of the room. aku dah tak kenal orang.. sakit macam orang giler.

Dalam operating theatre.. i was thinking to myself apsal dia kasi benda oxygen nie macam tak laku je.. jangan bila dia operate i'm wide awake! wahh the pain makin sakit makin sakit! wa duuhhhhhh tak tahan.. Then I was thinking, agaknye dah nak mati... agaknye aku nie byk dosa... sebab tu cam ni keadaan.

bila dia pasang anathesia... sempat ku shahadat and gone.

6:18pm

Nuha Alia was born into the world. Such a pretty little girl. She was 54cm and 3.2kg

God knows what time I was wheeled back to the room. In my giddiness i opened my eyes saw a blurred vision of my husband. In the room I know I mengerang cos damn it was painful!

Well that was it. My labour story.

saje saje

Esok genap 40minggu. dah cukup dah. Hari Isnin is my check-up.. final check up i hope. Pray for me okay? that this delivery would be smooth, safe and healthy for me and baby. Takde satu petanda pun contraction mcm orang giler ke (semuanya can handle), waterbreak ke, bloodyshow ke.

Semalam malam tak tahan.. emo sangat sampai menangis. I dont know why but I was kinda upst with what's going on with me. Kenapa no signs at all.. i takut kena c-section again. all those things all things went thru my mind.

Pagi tadi I went to my mom's place masak bamia. In fact bende is my fav vegetable. Kesian my husband dia tak gi course tadi pagi.. cos semalam malam umar tak pasal2x batuk2x and me with my emo overload.

Al Fatihah to Jimi's uncle yang passed away. Semoga Allah grant him Jannah Amin.

WTL - hopefully everything will turn up well for you tomorrow AMIN.

TheDreamer - cepat2x recover and savor the rain.

Lun - hopefully your ayah is well and healthy.

cekya - dah sihat ke belum?

Ligo - where are you now? kenapa senyap.. tak update.

The rest - have a good friday and weekend.

random thoughts - while you are still inside

On the subject of peeing

1. With the countless times of peeing over the period of 39weeks now, i find flushing a waste of water.
2. In fact, I know my way round with my eyes close most of the time.
3. The shortest time span from one pee to another is 35 mins.
4. The longest time span from one pee to another is 2hrs.
5. The most I peed is when you (not you - the baby) move too much
6. As most of the 24hrs a day is spent in the toilet, I had to make the toilet alittle more interesting. Previously I didn't bother how the toilet looked like.
7. Glade does work in the toilet
8. The average time spent in the toilet peeing is 5.5 mins

On the subject of dressing up

1. Color co-ordination matters most
2. In fact sheer lipgloss brightens up the bloated face
3. The best dress to wear is the jubah- it's free and easy and roomy
4. when they say those maternity pants you bought is stretchable and would last you till you give birth and in fact after - well, they lied.
5. Looking all pregnant and dolled up is fun after all!
6. You don't get those freebies when you are pregnant. Civic-mindedness is passe.

Most often told to me

1. "Take your time, it's okay". All said by taxi drivers.

What cheezes me off

1. Smoke and smokers
2. Irresponsible dog owners
3. Irresponsible joss paper burning - they get away all the time don't they?
4. Suckers
5. People who stand up just to suck up to their boss and protect their rice bowl.
6. People who walk so close to me, just close enough to almost knock me down so that *I* would give way to them. They won't bother saying excuse me. I was almost knocked down just now by a shopping cart.
7. Limp hair (suggest that they have not washed their hair for past God Knows Howmany days!)
8. Body odors.
9. People who expect *YOU* to open the door for them and not hold it for you to pass by.
10. Bikers who drive or park their bikes at the void deck or by the walkway.
11. Cyclists who ring their bells a mile a way expecting you to give them the right-er way.
12. Singaporean drivers.
13. IN fact give them anything that requires them to man-handle (cars, strollers, shopping cart, rollerblades, motorbikes, bicycles) they take it as if its Formula One and they have 5 secs to go before the clock stops.

the Fives

My overdue FIVES - 6 things i would do if i were a millionaire

• empower more people to improve their lives through religion, education, skills and knowledge.
• do an environmental project
• take time off to do work in underdeveloped Muslim countries
• my own foundation n trust
• buy a business entity
• be part of UN/OIC/IDB/WorldBank (don't know why I have to be a millionaire to do this)

5 bad habits

• play with my hair when i'm thinking ( i lose hair that way)
• cut my nails when watching TV (don't know why this is a BAD habit tho)
• scratching my skin
• umm... none else.

5 things i hate doing

• ironing my hubby's stuff
• cleaning and washing the toilet
• scratching my skin

5 things i never do

• anything that has to do with heights like bungee jumping
• anything that has to do with water like swimming
• be on TV game show/reality TV show stuffs

5 things i regret doing

• biting my nails when I was much younger
• not listening to my parents when I was supposed to
• not saying I Love You to my late brothers and father
• not having my last looks at loved ones
• buying shoes that don't fit

5 fave toys/things

• my quilt (though its not patchwork but I love it)
• my bed
• my home
• my phone (it's with me 24/7)
• my camera

ten to ten pm

Tgh boring. Still waiting for some signs! ahahahhah I can't believe I am doing this! Literally waiting for a contraction, waterbreak or bloody show! 1 sign for sure my pelvic bones dah lembik rasanye...

I had a good afternoon nap so Im kinda up right now. I've emailed my boss saying that I am taking leave for now. I can't believe I ended my own contract. I woke up just now with this craving for blueberry cheesecake. AND I need to buy bedsheets (again!) and flossing and brushing is my current obession.

*sigh*

terima kasih

Thank you for all your concerns. Nari birthday nye The Dreamer. Selamat Hari Jadi TheD. Semoga apa yang nak dicapai tercapai jadinya.

Memang cobaan yang Allah nak beri.. sakit dari haritu tu, mak dan anak. Punya tak terdaya Allah sahaja yang tau. Mungkin Allah nak hilangkan dosa2x tak? Lepas tu dah boleh give birth? Semalam malam bawak Umar gi hospital lagi. *sigh* dah 3 bulan nie gi hospital. Alhamdulillah pagi nie nampak sihat and banyak mulut. Dah okay lah tu. Mak dia yang tak tahan.. sakit badan.. bentan kata orang. baru nak baik flu dah satu hal lagi. Alhamdulillah my helper came and so did my kakak urut. Heaven sent betul! My mother pulak decide to cook for us. ALHAMDULILLAH!

Kakak urut kata dah memang nampak time. I bilang dia boleh tak urut kasi trigger beranak. Dia ketawa. Sewel agaknye budak nie. Lepas tu dia cakap "dahlah okaylah malam nie u beranak!" For now I swear I just want to get it over and done with. Dengar cekmi's sister dah give birth.. wah dah senang. Bila aku nye turn pulak? Tak de rasa contraction pulak.... apa dah!

So gitulah my update thus far. Nari tak gi kerja.

im so sick

Gawd Im so sick. I could barely lift my head or my fingers. Pls Allah let me have my health back so that I can be prepared for birth. ASAP.

I_mshe@homewithumarandtheflu

International Women's Day

Ramai feminist out there will be celebrating this day today. But I feel it's not a celebration for the feminist alone. Us Women. We need to look at us. US women.. have we done justice to ourselves in our view of ourselves, in relation to our environment, social, cultural, education societal?

Just something for us to get our knees and toes on.. not to forget that we women of the world deserve the best? Speak out if you are not happy.

i_mshe@homewithumarwhoissick

Im cravnig for....

Mrs Field's Brownie Nibblers... yum yum yum 4:05pm - im sleepy...zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I did this last nite but somehow i erased it by accident. Bloghazard.

Cekmi asked how does it feel to crave for something knowing there is another soul inside?

Cekmi it cannot be fathom by mere explanation or description. Pain and pleasure intersect at a thin line. It is 2 different persons. It's like hmm.. have u watched Alien before? Where the baby alien was incubated inside one of the guy's body and came out from his stomach (okay this is really a gory and morbid way of explaining but it's not THAT bad).

It's like Chang and Eng with the age gap. It's like Charla and Myrna (Amazing Race).

We differ on alot of things. Like food, car (or simply car rides), drink, smell. Of course we tend to agree on many things like I don't like people who smell it simple irks me. I don't like mess (I tend to close one eye.. but nowadays I'm all for social responsibility).

Like yesterday when I had the brownie nibblers. I dunk in milk and popped it in my mouth. OH boy my girl was dancing and swirling and it was the most movement I've ever felt. It was a seismic which I can't measure. BUT when I have Milo. I'll straight go to the toilet. She don't agree.

So there you go.. fraternal twins, to simple put it.

Saturday

Dah 4 hari berturut2x sakit kepala.. mcm berdengung gitu. I put ice pack this morning it went away. Tadi tertidor and woke up with headache again. Agaknye kepala panas. Cos less than 20 mins the ice pack dah cair!

Ligo had a good time i'm sure kat geylang. Minum cheekong! Boy I can certainly imagine the cold cheekong rite in front of my face now. *sigh* sedap! Beli apa Ligo kat geylang?

Nari alittle heavier than usual. More bed bound. Sampai takut nak berak. hehehe but dah selamat melepas dah. Dalam ke sakitan kepala, I can only think of 1 thing and it's the oddest of all. Chen Su Bian - president of Taiwan. Of ALLLLL the things in the things in the world. Chen Su Bian came to my mind! And I can't get rid of it. Must be some wiring in my brain that wanted me to think of an alternative out of the blue kind of thing. Oh cakap pasal brain nie, my current addiction is all hospital related stories, especially 3lbs. It's about this neurologist. Stanley Tucci is the main character yang kononnya nak save kan orang tapi think he is god. Another guy baru kerja 6 bulan but sees his patients with a heart. Very very good. Currently showing on Hallmark Channel. Last nite, the advert kata season finale! *sigh* OH yeah. The old E.R. I am watching that too. Of course my fave CSIs and Law and Order. My fav is actually Special Victims Unit tapi tak tunjuk sekarang. Just the original Law and Order. Tak pe ah ade Benjamin Pratt. Suka tengok muka dia. I heard he is an excellant photographer (tengok kat Oprah). I think he is such a sweetheart. Glad he didn't end up with Julia Roberts.

Teringatkan macaroni and fried chicken. Insha Allah Monday nie dapat lah makan. I ordered for the office as a surprise.

Orang kata masa mengandung nie senses are strong. Tadi bila nak ambik wudhu terbau dengan kuatnya my boss punya bamia and I could actually see it before my eyes! Punyalah sedap. Her specialty is bamia and what's that name.. kachang phool! Excellant giler. I thot of smsing her abt my hallucination. tapi tak pe ah. She is pretty stressed up in fact this is the worst I've seen her in sampai nangis2x.

I sms Lun .. out of wanting to know a question that has been on my mind for the longest time. Air petuban najis tak? Lun thot mine burst. I said not yet. I really do wonder though. Lun punya theory mungkin najis mutawassita. Wah dah lama tak dengar word tu ah! So syiok gitu dengar word tu! Najis pertengahan. Apsal eh?

Cekya how's your baby contest going? Hope it worked well and you got some nice pics to go along with it :)

Kak Emmy how's the saLiVating going? ehehhe nak tengok gambar beg tu.. jangan lupa post it on your blog.

How's the weekend for the rest?