Slept late last nite. We were watching Kiss the Girls! sooo intense soo suspense!. Slept like 3am! woke up at 7am. On to the maid... didn't really get a chance to see how she works, so i was literally on her butt the whole morning. Seeing how she cleaned up Nuha.. sungguh tak bersih betul air semua jadi najis. Jadi selama ni rupa cam tu dia bersihkan. I taught her all over again. Made bread pudding - only thing missing is the vanilla sauce cos I don't know how to make it and cooked ketola masak lemak. woo hoo, made her fry tahu and kerepek belinjau. best jugak! Plan to make chicken fettucine maybe new year. See how I feel.

I had fits of sneezing till my face and ear ache till now. Don't know whether to go to work tomorrow since it's half day and that newbie sabo is tomorrow. If don't go still have to do it in the next coupla months. But i'm in no mood since no one wants to listen to me.

Lately my left foot felt odd. Actually been like that since i had my second c-section. and lately the cut been sensitive feeling too. LIke i have to hold myself when i walk. Maybe I should urut again.

So much for brisk walking yesterday. Colleagues se-olah insinuate me for my intention of an anti-social activity of brisk walking around the stadium. They asked me to join them for bowling. well alright then i said. We reached bowling alley.. it was jammed pack had to be on the waiting list and in the end ended up drinking strawberry milk shake. What a waste of opportunity. I went home at 5:30. Fedap.

So nak hilangkan geram, I went to the pasar in my track shoes. It felt good.

I also realised one thing - I can't get enough of diamonds!

Now I'm watching Sesame Street with the kids lounging in the main room. You know what's missing? There should be a video collection Sesame Street!

For the first time in my entire working life, i'm wearing a pair of track shoes to work and no lipstick (no lipstick is not the first time lah... i have my i-can't-be-bothered days). I intend to brisk walk today! how exciting!

i'm also wondering.... what does it mean when one of your colleague say don't want this person in this discussion cos may ask too much question (altho this remark is not directed to me)... however the tone is like in a jest.Should the remark be taken seriously? or pure teasing between colleagues. The remark was passed when that particular person wasn't around.

what you think?

lunch menu - masala thosai pleassseee

d tradition is - all new staff must put up a performance wether group or indivdual in front of every1.. tu yang benci tu..

but i've decided to make best of the situation. I'm going to do story telling kalau d rest tak nak join me. I do it my way!

anyway tgh takde mood nari...

• 1 of my colleagues kat sini i find out damn bloody shallow. pissed me off. Tonite got farewell dinner which i can't be bothered to join. lebih baik balik rumah spend time with family lagi bagus
• sore throat and sore nose. tadi pagi go doc.

been telling myself this... i don't foresee myself in this place longer than 2 years .. perhaps 1 year.. tgk camne.. or maybe i'm talking like this cos i'm not in the mood.

i hate to be told last minute.. stupid ol' tradition!

2008

I have 3 major projects for 2008

1. Set up a family outing/holiday calender

2. Family expenditure

3. A major family outing

Sounds scary for the 2nd and 3rd but INsha Allah hopefully Allah puts us in His invite list *wink*

I can't help being conscious lately of my actions and thoughts. Just to make sure i'm doing things right ande hopefully not crossing the boundaries.

Nuha's 9mths today! that's why she chatting all the wayyyy.

On a parent note : there has to be such thing as fatherese ( akin to motherese) unless my hubby is the only daddy that does that!

arrghhhhhhhhhhh

Been messing around with the templates and I completely LOST everything! ni lah bukan nya pandai sangat with all these stuffs... ok i'm with this simple template for now!

Back-ache, sore throat and craving for tosai, south indian meal and i can't remember the name of the crackers! WHAT IS It callled? papodum!

boogie boogie boogie boogie woogie

Nuha's been chatty lately, in fact she would talk non-stop to her pacifier, to her linkadoos, to anything...and just today she's been repeating boogie boogie boogie boogie woogie. hahahahaha

On another subject, maybe it's my age... i find crowds make me terribly dizzy. I got myself 2 pair of shoes in the last 1 week. ARGH@ we as a family are on a major project to cut our losses as much as possible. But I needed shoes. So i bought 1 that's for work .. casual days, i bought anotehr walking shoes..needed for briskwalk wednesday (I plan to embark on it this coming Wednesday). Now i need a new coin pouch and a sling bag. arrrghhh.

hmm.. found something new. tapi tak syok jugak ah.. i like the color and flower tapi macam kurang oomph gitu.. i'll leave this for now till lunch. nari mcm nak makan delifrance gitu. what's for lunch? can't wait to go home. Today i feel like i miss my baby daughter nuha.. don't know why cam rinduuuu skali....

some wrong with d blog. i have to revert to this design temporarily. Feeling drowsy and no mood to work. Just blogging day today? urrrmmm perhaps. boss takde supervisor pun takde. yang tak syok nye ...open cubicle. ceh. Looking for kerudung for my new maid later. hopefully they have it around here.

amacam??? my first attempt at men cantikkan my blog. cuma tak tau camne nak letak pic.. umm amacam eh?

wahh cantik blog korang eh! hmmm i need to revamp jugak lah... tapi tak pandai ahhh godeh2x html etc

I'm Batam dreaming.. spa, lulur, total pampering...... tapi tak pernah pergi... any1 nak gi sama2x?

i feel my head is not on my body. I feel disoriented. Hubby said we should be thankful we have jobs. Don't complain. Just bear with it.

grumpy

It's a Sunday, we're planning to go out as soon as Nuha wake's up. Umar's has been changing shirts, the one that he is putting on is his 3rd shirt.

Me : Why did you take off that shirt? (pointing to the previous one)

Umar : Cos that shirt is grumpy.

!!!!!!!!!

The animated Umar and that's me in him!

can't depend on people. got to survive on your own. asking help is like ..ummm its like the most horrible thing to do. but the other party can. no problem. me cannot.

TIME for a holiday. Pulai Springs. hmmmm... *dreaming*

SLOW is an understatement.

running. it's not really something i was fond of. but i ran. "run forest, run!". I ran to catch the bus. with 2.5 inch heels. tempted to take it off and run barefoot. thankfully. kind driver stopped and waited for me. Thank you thank you soo much. Now, i won't be late for work.

In spite of the fact that life has been hectic messy and i swear my eyeballs could drain from my eyes.. it's been quite okay actually. Maybe the support from hubby who took off for the week. Yes im bloody stressed up. and many times i'm at constant war with myself. Then the kids 'decide' to fall sick, how can life get any better than this for a working mom?

Thankfully its Saturday. And i'm gonna take it as it is.

Yes I may think of quitting work or probably work from home with whatever I can do. Yes I will risk losing lots of financial gains, income stability perhaps it can work afterall?

I have to find the steps as to how i'm going to achieve that and take the courage. What else can i do besides what I do? I dont know. I do best what I do now. Being a messy mom.