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Semalam

I had briyani for dinner. Jeles korang makan briyani. HEheheh so pergi Chettinad Curry. for the 1st time. very traditional indian restaurant. Chicken briyani dia sedap. Very light taste. The masala tea was alittle disappointing. Cos I expected strong masala taste tapi mungkin dia kasi salah.

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Korang ( Lun and Ligo) kecoh beremailan. Riuh rendah email I. Thanks. It was fun.

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My boss had a chat with me. Rasa terbalik dunia. Kesiankan dia. I really feel that maybe I could put my interest aside and go thru with all my colleauges. She said there is going to be a big void. If I truly wanna leave, they have to get some1 to understudy me or one of the staff to understudy. I had to sms to another fren to ask her help to remind me why I am doing this again. Is it bad to say that I wanna leave so that I can come back and serve better? Does it look bad coming from an employee? What would the employer think eh?

She said she don't want me to leave if its for sentimental reasons. If its to learn somethign new. She asked where the place was and if they offer same flexibility. I just kept quiet and in a daze. Lepas tu I rasa sedih dan semacam guilt gitu.

I love the family atmosphere here and the togetherness. Eventhough its sort of contradicting with the politicking environment.

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I asked Allah's help to sort my mind. Whether leaving is rite thing to do for me, my family future Iman health and wealth.

ngantuk

Today

Today

On the way to work I was going thru my mind i was waiting a little spark in my head of a hint of doubt.

It didn't appear.

Today

Unlike other days, I dress to kill. Usually when I dress to kill it is to cheer my self up.

Today

I cried in front of my DED. Too emotional. But don't what to do. Just cried.

Today

Is the biggest decision in life I made. Cos its a lot of change.

ARgggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

I don't feel guilty. I'm starting to miss everything and everyone here.

I'VE GOT A JOB!!!

ALHAMDULILLAH!!!

I'VE BEEN OFFERED THE FULL-TIME JOB!!!! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!

Tadi macam orang giler jap. I emailed the lady in the morning nak check status ape jadik. then after 1 hr she called me. She told she emailed me tapi i bilang tak dapat.

Neway long story short, dia and i berbual itik and ayam story. Dia berbual pasal full-time offer I thot she berbual pasal part-time and I said yes to part-time cos I said I understand lah kalau dorang takde budget untuk fulltimer. Then she said "Huh?? U accepting part-time?? (she macam confuse giler gitu)" I said yes. But we are offering you fulltime" ( I almost terpekik kat ofis.. tapi I went to another corner in the office) I told her I wish I could scream rite now I'm soo happy thank you!!!" gitulah minah nie tak kira sapa orang tu sondol je. Was being myself. She too was happy that I said yes. Alhamdulillah. Allah showed His guidance. Thank you Allah. Thank you fellow friends who do'a for me. Thank you.

Lepas tu terlalu excited was thinking sapa nak ku bilang other than my family. Of course the fellow bloggers jugak *wink*

Thanks for listening.

Memang

Memang dah beberapa hari pasang niat nak update blog nie. Tapi tak ade kesempatan langsung. Monday and Tuesday lepas on leave. Monday gi cycling kat east coast. tapi gue tak tau cycle. Dah lah jadi sarkis bapak mak dengan anak on 1 bike. tapi it was fun. abis tu hujan pun turun. tuesday. ingat kan nak gi cycling lagi. tapi hujan satu hari patahkan niat. So me and my mom gi shopping. hahahahahah. Hmm sejauh nie dah sejak GSS dah 3 shoes i bought untuk tahun nie dah 5 pair of shoes! tapi semua below 30 dollars!! woohooo. Hai teringat lun. abis tu bila jalan je nampak kasut tangan gatal nak beli. tapi tahan myself.

I bought my 1st teapot! sejak kawin lebih 4 tahun tak de teapot. pakai handme down. i've been eyeing this certain teapot sejak last year. abihtu bila nak beli dah kehabisan stok. so bought another one. Sekarang tgh kemarok nak carik satu set smal teacup and saucer sets, white color. My colleague told me kat Joo Chiat ade. Hmm bila ade chan nak turun Joo Chiat eh?

Wed and Thursday I had conference. Tapi Tuesday malam dah sakit. Wednesday tetap gi conference tapi bersin macam nak terbalik. So Thursday MC dok rumah. Nari at work. Tapi malas nak kerja. Jap lagi ade meeting. Nari rezeki. anak buah bawak lunch! ehehhe

Last sunday gi tengok sesame street. Tak pasal2x terasa nak nangis. Abis malu sorang. Macam terasa re-living my childhood days gitu. But I love the show. So did umar!

I have 1 week left to give my answer to those people who offered me the job. I did counter propose a fulltime tapi belum ade jawapan. Sekiranya part-time well I dont;t know.

Let me list down the pros of taking the job part-time or full-time

-new environment - i need to grow, learn new things, find new challenges. Challenges posed over here at my current job doesn't excite me anymore.

- part-time - kalau part-time bermakna gaji kecik tapi more time with my son. Save money can cook at home. Can do more wifely things and take up courses on my own since I own my time.

- Working with children with special needs and their families - its what i like. passion. i feel the community is barely scratching this .. dont have no1 to champion the cause.

Cons

-kurang duit - tak mencukupi untuk keluarga eventho me hubby kata tak pe. we try.

- jauh sikit- kat bedok. mungkin duit transport pakai lebih cos pagi antar anak sekolah then rush to work.

arrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggh its a tussle between family and self interest.

lun - sunday madrasah.. well i try no promises cos ade wedding and open house. but wd love to be there.

pros of staying at work

- hmmm.. flexibility... ade time offs

- pay current enough for family and savings insha Allah.

cons

- no interest in current work. I feel overloaded. dulu tak rasa gini.. tapi sekarang macam nak muntah rasa.

- hate boss

- will have to work weekends as part of new schedule.. may not like it cos means no time for son. already hubby working fulltime weekends.

- company no directions.

- hate politics.

- hate handling the politics.

Oh Allah pls tell me what to do.

Cerita ku

I got a job offer. Alhamdulillah but it's for part-time position and 1 year contract je. sedih. too short. but the job is something i wanna to do and the group are the people i wanna worked with. I made a counter offer. Susah. Last coupla days i've been having a hard time juggling decisions. Does not help that me hubby is fickle. Macammana pun i have to make the best decision which would benefit everyone and maybe not me. Mungkin kena sacrifice ke... tgk ah camne. Of course the paycut is tremendous. Teruk giler.

mamaemmy came and went i guess. terlalu sibuk the last weekend sampai terlupa that she was in sg. I suppose she had a great time shopping. Me still doing my shopping bila ade peluang. Me hubby down with some odd thing. Tadi gi doc buat biopsy. Suddenly i am worried and takut. Results lagi 2 minggu.

This weekend Insha Allah gi tengok Sesame Street. Yippie!

Lun - how u and the baby? Are you going for the Hi-tea? Pergilah. Can catchup :)

Ligo - amacam snow? Hariz ok tak?

WtL- my one and only gal. Miss you.

I feel like running away to KL. hahahahhhah. I need a break.

Pray for me that I get this job full-time (if Allah wills it). if i am desperate they offer me part-time pun .. may be i mite just take it. may be......................................................

i got a new aunt.

I got this 'new aunt'. She lives far in penang. I 'discovered' her last nite. while bloghopping.

Auntyn. Check her aunt. The cool aunt/makchiks who blogs.

Thanks for calling mamaemmy. Makes me wanna go to KL. Glad to hear u r coming over to SG. Let's meet if there's a chance.

Ligo - dentist? how?

me at home with umar. he's sleep. gotta run errands. later.