disapointment

Why is that i'm really disappointment with the people around me? Why I can't trust any one? Time to go I_mshe.

Why do we choose to be hypocrites? In self defense? To protect ego?

Why the lady smiled at me tell me bad news .. someone died. Sometimes our body language does not match what we say. Sick.

I am tired with this kinda people. I dont see any hope in this organization any more. I have useless people who are coward, two faced. Why can't be true and fight for what's right? Or am i just too idealistic?

Superman syndrome.

My heart rasa tak tenteram... donno why... Here's to the women out there and the women in us and the women around us. One Flaw In Women > > Women have strengths that amaze men. > > They bear hardships and they carry burdens, > > > but they hold happiness, love and joy. > > > They smile when they want to scream. > > > They sing when they want to cry. > > > They cry when they are happy > > > and laugh when they are nervous. > > > They fight for what they believe in. > > > They stand up to injustice. > > > They don't take "no" for an answer > > > when they believe there is a better solution. > > > They go without so their ! family can have. > > > They go to the doctor with a frightened friend. > > > They love unconditionally > > > They cry when their children excel > > > and cheer when their friends get awards. > > > They are happy when they hear about > > > a birth or a wedding. > > > Their hearts break when a friend dies. > > > They grieve at the loss of a family member, > > > yet they are strong when they > > > think ! there is no strength left. > > > They know that a hug and a kiss > > > can heal a broken heart. > > > Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors. > > > They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you > > > to show how much they ca! re about you. > > > The heart of a woman is what > > > makes the world keep turning. > > > They bring joy, hope and love. > > > They have compassion and ideas. > > > They give moral support to their > > >; > family and friends. > > > Women have vital things to say > > > and everything to give. ! > > HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN, > > IT IS THAT THEY FORGET THEIR WORTH.

Umar's first day of school

Yeap. Finally I had the courage to put him to school. It was more of fear my side. He's too young still a baby not ready yet. Then last week me and hubby realised that he *could* actually get bored.

So off he went today.. his first day of school 3hr programme. It's gonna be kelamkabut on my part but I think it's a sacrifice i need to make. I send and fetch. this week I take time off to pick him up from school and then dropped him off at my mom's.

I haven't had proper sleep lately. Work has been bothering me.. not work but issues at work. I had enough of it today and decided to email my hr about it.. though he was on mc. He was kind to call me 1hr ago. told me to have a good nite rest. I have been falling sick none stop.

Today I felt like as if I've been stabbed in front right on the chest by my boss. I know now definitely i wanna leave. Boss is weak as in my hubby's words. just weak. scared to face the truth and stand up. I've been standing for what's right and she said she'll be right behind me and now suddenly its *my* personal issue. what the fish!If it had been personal it would be different for me. It would be my personal agenda!

God it's sad cos I've put in soo much.. soo much sacrifice .. my heart soul time effort it's not worth it. cos within split second she just destroyed it.. just like that.

I need to learn to react fast. Cos my emotional reflexes is slow. It had to sink in me then I can feel my emotions flow.

New mall at JB. Tebrau something... sounds interesting. Must check it out!

I wanna kiss kiss kiss till the sun goes down

my second half of the day with my son was pure indulgence. We were from one mall to the other. 1st city hall then bugis then tanglin mall. i love his company. i'm amaze that i could actually survive out there with him. no tantrums. i explain why we need to do certain things and he understood and move on. I bought 2 bedsheets and 3 pillows. I was proud of myself that I was acting like a true mother. We chose which biscuits to buy, we had a mother and son dinner. It was great!

I wanted to bring him to gymboree. but bodoh me, sampai the place was almost closing. And I don't even know how to explain that to him. so i beg the girl to let him linger around the place cos there were still parents and kids around. So umar got his 15 mins of playgym. After playgym we went around the mall and I saw some toys. I was the one who was excited. ON display there were two types of train on a track and four cute race cars on track. i asked him to choose which one he wanted. I was surprised that it was cheap. Only $10! We both agreed on the cars. Well it was more of me choosing the car heheh.

We got home i fixed the track with much care takut bende tu pecah.. ye lah $10. There must be a good reason why it was only $10. All tracks fix, cars ready to go, I turned on the switch and this is what I hear " I wanna kiss kiss kiss till the sun goes down" song that goes on and on and on . none stop! arrrrrrrrrrghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh That explained the price!

mabuk

adddduuhhhhh.... mabuk sey kepala. information overload! ade sekor kawan ku talipon.. aku tgh ler busy. i gave another number to call raser nye kawan nie fedap dgn gue. can;t be help. cos i am really bengang right now. sorry babang.

i'm taking half day to be with me son. runny nose and slight cough. ingat nak bawak dia shopping. What a cure! tengok ah camner.

apsal selalunnye orang atasan kepala otak dorang lain sikit and tak tengok long term bila nak buat satu2x eh? is it a general disease contagious to orang atasan?

This one is for WTL, Lun, TD and those yg kerja keras

" I urgently needed a few days off work, but I knew the Boss would not allow me to take a leave. I thought that maybe if I acted crazy then he would tell me to take a few days off. So I hung upside down on the ceiling and made funny noises. My blonde co-worker asked me what I was doing? I told her that I was pretending to be a light bulb so that the Boss would think I was nuts and give me a few days off. A few minutes later the Boss came into the office and asked "What are you doing ?" I told him I was a light bulb. He said "You are clearly stressed out. Go home and recuperate for a couple of days". I jumped down and walked out of the office. When my co-worker (the blonde) followed me, the Boss asked her: " ...And where do you think you're going?" She said, "I'm going home too, I can't work in the dark!"

8 things about Mr Perfect (not the greasy wrestler)

Eh! Cam tau je kita suka kena tag Enche Zuhri. hehehhe. Good distraction for me. 8 eh.. ish susah ah... 8 je.

1. Nice arms - sculpted, putih or warna teh susu with dark color bulu tangan (takkan blonde kan? oops TD might disagree!hehehe). yuck to some of you tapi cam sexy gitu for me. Nice bod also lah kalau dah sculpted arms tu.

2. Nice set teeth (takboleh porcelain veneers ah) with a great smile especially if I look at him from the side. He would have that 'balance' look on his face from the side profile. Abih biler dia ketawa cute gitu kan macam nak grab rasanye. Osshhh getting hot in here!

3. romantic and creative - sudah tentu. boleh mencairkan.

4. open minded - easy to talk to, a listener and listens well and listens with his heart.

5. well read - good balance in everything.. boleh ke pasar, boleh argue at the boardroom

6. stubbles - those stubbles especially kalau nampak green green kan...

7. dress well - who can carry himself with confidence and dapat menyesuaikan diri bila perlu dan pandai bawa diri bila necessary.

8. nails - clean nails please.

I nak LUn buat ..hehehehe *wink*

feeling down

When I am feeling down lately I listen to Anuar Zain. Tak tau apsal. Today I feel down bukan pasal my colleague nak leave. I think that is a reality that I have no control over. Its abt another one.. i can't seem to fathom manusia yang boleh have feelings of hatred when we had such good relationship. Tapi ye lah manusia.... dolak dalik. I have no hard feelings but it's just sad that this person choose to shut down. And why is it that I can have no feelings of hatred ke marah ke.. tapi lebih disappointment.. sad that things have gone this way. And this has been going on since Jan. And I'm not the sort of person who likes to keep grudges, simpan hatred and stuff like that. I'm a true blue HippiE!

Neway there are plans for me to move out of my dept and do more clinical work less administrative stuff. Something I love! But I have made some decisions which is important for my family. I need to move on and just take a break from the working world. Of course I will finish the load of junk I have on my plate. Maybe have some time to start something new with the new jobscope until like late May.

I had an overdose of Roti Boyan. Cam nak muntah rasanyer sekarang. *wek*

aku benciiiiiii

I hate it when I have sudden amnesia. I can't remember what happen to my bankcard, bus card and ntuc card (supermarket card). It's just a matter of 2 days off from work and my brain goes haywire. i swear i can't remember where i put it and how i made my last transaction. I think it was cash. i went thru my baju's pockets and pants.. dah cuci pun the pants. arrrrrrrghhhhhhh!!! geram nyeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.....

Hingus

I went to speak to my Deputy ED just now over some jobscope of a particular staff. I'm by default a klutz.. I guess I have improved over the years somehow.

So tak pasal2x aku nervous and start to be breathless. Then I start to be conscious of myself and I asked myself apsal aku nervous tak pasal nie.... then tak pasal i feel hingus ku termelilih.... ceettt di turun dari lubang hidung. Dgn cepatnya aku bangun and told my director hidung I gatal nak carik tisu. and cepat2x aku excuse myself!

maluuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

hot

i'm slowly recovering from whatever u may call it. Mungkin panas jadi asyik lightheaded je. Neway I plan to enjoy life. Positively. Only I can make the change.