Monday, August 27, 2007

Im sucha busy momma!

Last few weeks i've been busy with interviews. I've told by my own sister that it seems my brain has decayed ever since i last worked. I truly agree with her. Sometimes i suffer wordlessness and i can't seem to express myself coherently. And to switch malay to english and english to malay when I need it i would come to a stump.

Anyway All praises are due to Allah who has helped me throughout my unemployment period. He has allowed me the time to be more with my family and to get to know them even better. I can't imagine how work has taken away soo much of knowing my own flesh and blood and my loving husband. What more He had helped through the period of uneasiness by settling in comfortably in my role as a mother. In addition I did not forget my role as a sister and a daughter. I sense my mom's delight when she summoned me to go out with her. She must feel i've never been this mobile in my entire relationship with her.

I've kissed my kids numerous times a day, smell their sweaty head, bite their meaty arms, tickle and wrestle with Umar and babble along with Nuha. Going back to work next Monday will make me miss my time with my love ones. I wished there is two of me. Occassionally this fear would sneak in me - that my daughter would love my helper more than me. That she smells her more than me. I am glad that my workplace is literally a walking distance. I could sneak back home and sneak kisses and hugs and love to my daughter and hurry home at 6 for me to hug my son. I have told my husband that I don't want to work (no matter how badly decayed my brain would be) that may be I would want to work part-time only. I can't help but cry right now in pain of eventually leaving my children to my helper and Pray to Allah to look after them. And I know they will miss me as much as I miss them.

Any mother would have gone from sanity to crazy and sanity and crazy again for having to leave their kids behind to work!

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

My current craze and I might wanna subscribe to it too!

Monday, August 06, 2007

When I was just a child

  • I see all things as living things, as having life to it. That you would hurt the spoon if you put in the hot gravy.
  • I talked to snails. (Last check, I talked to snails about 3years ago)
  • I had a car when other kids have bike. In fact I think this is the first toy they ever bought for any of their children.
  • I figured that if I comb my hair to the left or right, it would help the hair on the other side grow. I believe in giving chances even to my own hair.
  • I thought that if I put baby powder on my eyelids it would enhance my eyes. That's my eyeshadow.
  • That if i eat Benson's sweets and like my lips with it and let the sticky stuff remains, that'll be my lipgloss.
  • That if I put powder on the floor in the living room, that would be my skating arena.
  • Some of my favourite toys was my dialphone, green soldiers figurine, saga seeds, magnets and a ball.
  • That if i tie two curtains together it would become a swing.

How lovely!

Wednesday, August 01, 2007