It's my birthday

I turn 31 today .. i feel old.

When I was in my teens I fear reaching the 20s. I fear because of responsibility. I fear adulthood. I never thot I would live till mid 20s or late 20s. Morbid of course but I realised that this is my natural reaction due to my past.

And to make matters worst - bad things or bad news tend to happen around October. Like the Haze now. I literally am growing dust over my eyes nowadays. I swear I can't wait for this to be over and move on with my life as per normal.

Price hikes tend to be in October because it's the final quarter of the year. Bleah!

Well whatever it is, bouquets to me. I survived till 31 by the Grace of Allah.

I hope to die in my sleep just like my dad.